I posted a live video yesterday on Instagram of me scraping some piped sugar off of a panel. It was pretty green vines. And there I was destroying it! I later heard that some people thought I was angry and taking out my frustrations on my art. I found that assessment to be rather amusing to say the least! So lest people think I am opening up a sugar themed "rage room" in my studio, I thought I would set the record straight.
Sometimes, as creative makers, we need look at our work objectively. This is also why it's good to have studio visits and critiques by others: it helps us keep perspective, to step outside of our emotions and see what's working and what isn't. I have been working on a sugar piece in the studio and, in trying something new, I came to realize that something wasn't working. My gut was telling me that I needed to stop and think on it for a minute.
I went home, did some thinking, and realized that some parts needed to go. I couldn't be influenced by the emotional tugging that said, "no, I just spent two days working on that!". It's a tough call to make when you realize you need to start something over, or often, if we have to just abandon a project or an idea because it isn't going anywhere. But it has to happen for work to move forward. So the next day, I grabbed a putty knife and went to work scraping off the parts that needed to go. Once that decision was made, the rest was easy. Liberating actually. It's like many tough choices and decisions in life. The challenging part is in the deliberation of what to do. Once you decide to do something, even if it's a tough decision, taking action isn't that hard.
Part way through my frenzy of destruction, one of the 4ft x 4ft plywood panels fell off the wall, on me, then landing on my desk (along with my open laptop), sending even more icing off, and scattered everywhere. Once I confirmed that my computer was still functionally fine, I laughed at this divine intervention. Apparently, this partial destruction was indeed meant to be.